oh what the hell

gosh, it has been 3 years since ive updated this blog of mine..super tagal na ever..since then super jetski na ang life ko.. ahem sorry, jetlag? whatever.. lost the word. ive travelled a lot, ..how? when? where? well it all started 3 yrs ago, while i was with shubba, (yes remember shubba, my gay roomate?) in a gaybar, and like kakatitig namin sa mga lalaking halos mata nalang ang walang cover..ive had an epiphany, well sort of..d ko masyado makita ng maayos yung vision, nakakadistract kse si shubba at ang lalaking hinihipuan nya..ive thought a lot about travelling and i guess its time to put my savings out and see the big big world..so first, sympre we went out of the gaybar and sa starbucks..i told shubba my vision.. shubba: o anu nanaman mukang wala ka dito..whats up girl?  me: shubs, i got it.. i need to travel, this country is getting small for me and u shubba: ah talaga, bakit nalibot mu na ba ang pinas? alam mu na ang diff ng tagaytay at cagayan? me: hindi.. at oo hanggang ngayun naniniwala pa ren ako na ang tagaytay at cagayan ay iisa.,hehe. anu bah, listen to me..this is it shubba: if you wanna go, then go girl.. boom at ayun the next day, im on the next flight to NY.




and the life in NY starts..


i do have some friends in the big apple, like tracy (my uber nerd cousin who works in microsoft),  Bert (my higshchool friend who works in the hollywood as a star alalay), Mitch ( my auntie who now has a green card, thanks to her 5 yr plan husband) and Mike (my ex-neighbor, who a recovering addict and now has a car shop in brooklyn, and still an addict.)  well, the first few weeks was like super hell, have to find an apartment...a roomate and a fucking job that will pay for all my kaprichuhan. Thanks, to my aunt Mitch, who lent me some cash to start with and now wants it all back. stupid. i missed shubba so much, and had to find a decent roomate, i did find one though, a very cute one.. his name is kocher, yup oo parang sounds like sapatos or whatever..belt cguro. nakakaloka.  he's a part time student slash part time DJ, bongga. apparently he just got kicked out of his GF's apartment, because she found someone new, buti naman di ba, at least napunta sa akin hehe, ika nga another ones trash is another one  treasure, and plus bonus very cute. Sabi nga ni shubba, leche daw ako, for a change naman straight naman ang roomate ko. just want to be clear, we're just plain roomates. and hes not into girls like me, the loka-loka type.  I got a decent job naman as a sales lady in Gap, sosyal di ba..hirap lang maghanap ng sizes papalit palit kase yung mga puti. that was start of my NY life.. and the party starts..wait, my coffee maker broke, shit..wait.

weekend churva

Saturday night, well as all yuppies do, party kame to death ng friends ko. my roomate Shubba was on date with his lover, so sabi ko meet nalang kame sa place ni tim, his old buddy and a good friend of ours too.

Ayun, super inuman nalang at mingle sa embassy pero minutes lang, kase i'm into the crowd anymore, I just wanted to dress up lang pero alis na ren ako kase, paulit ulit lang naman. when I was young, feel ko talaga ganun pero you're in your thirties, sometimes these kind of parties appear baduy na, unless di mu naranasan to in your twenties, then you're missing a lot.

When I was younger, nagsawa ren ako sa ganyan, naranasan ko na yung uuwi ng mdaling araw lasing at naglilitanya na yung dad ko, or sinusundo pa ako ng kuya ko sa party minsan naman sinasabunutan na nya ako para lang umuwi. Yung the whole time, sermon to death ang nanay ko. tinatakas ko pa sasakyan. nagsisinungaling makapunta lang sa party ng crush ko, mga ganung eksena talaga. Pero ngaun , wla na mas feel ko pa magkape na lang at yosi.

Actually, kaya umuwi ako ng maaga kase, yung friend kong foreigner na si paolo was going to call, yup friends palang kame. as in. He's a doctor who works in europe. He's a bit of a nerd, the type na baduy pero cute. mabait sya kase mas matalino ako sa kanya e. hehe. he's been here in manila a couple of times to visit me and hangout na ren, pero we didn't officially date. kase may gf na sya, european din. pero mas maganda naman ako. Ganun talaga ang life.

I didn't go to the office today, tutal wala naman yung maldita kong boss. Cguro nakikipaglandian sa kabit nya. dito muna ako sa unit, at manunuod ako ng tribute concert for diana. astig ha infairness. ang gwapo pala nung anak nya si prince william. he's hot. sayang dinump ata ng jowa.

well i watched pbb last saturday...hmm. o cge na nanalo na si bea, so what? wendy was nice, nice naman sya e. eto naman kaseng madlang people sobra magjudge kala mu sinung mga malilinis.

asus kala mu naman si wendy lang ang pokpok sa pinas, ang dami dami natin e.

hay nako, maya nga lang ulit. nuod muna ako tv.

boring syndrome

i'm not going to work today, primarily because i have pms and i feel like killing anyone who passed by me. hehe.

Kagabi, "Annatek" dropped by to have dinner with us. we call her annatek, because she's always busy and always says "tek-teka muna". she is a lawyer and she has 3 children by the wrong man, she's divorced. and she lives next door. Annatek, has been our neighbor eversince, ginagawa palang tong building andito na ata sya. pero she's really nice, kaso lang laging busy kaya sa mga maids lang naiiwan ung mga bata, but we like her, kase ang bilis nya magsalita, parang laging may hinahabol. parang natataranta. pero last night, she just wanted to relax with us, nagdala pa nga ng alak.

she says she's bored na raw with her life. and she does need a man... just to get through the night. and we all laughed. oo nga e, minsan talaga u get so bored and u evaluate your life and u realize, there are impt things missing.

so all the three of us came up with something..

5 SIGNS NA BORED KA NA:


1. when u make a big deal out of super super small things, pati ba naman yung kuko ng janitor nyu sa office, inookray mu..parang medyu dapat lumalabas labas ka muna at magpahangin. at kapag, ultimo yung boses ng katabi mu sa work, eh masakit na tenga tapos lahat nalang pinapansin mu..tsk tsk..bored ka na.

2. kapag pagdilat mu pa lang ng mata mu, lam mu na kagad ang itinerary mu for the whole day..parang may vision ka na kagad. delikado na yun, dapat e after, u should drink out with your kapitbahays, kase bored ka na.

3. minsan akala mu lang pms lang yan, pero everytime nalang naiirita ka, di mu lam kung bakit, di na cguro pms yan.. at lagi kang iritable.. malamang tigang ka na (katulad namin hehe). kaya manuod ka naman ng porn at makipaglandian, kase bored ka na.

4. kapag wala ka nang ganang makipag-away sa bf mu, na routine din ang buhay..at inaantok ka na sa phone pag nagkukuwento sya ng problema nya, nako i-dump na yan.. boring na yang jowa. kahit ako e, nakakaantok din umintindi ng umintindi ng umintindi..nakakapagod. bored ka na.

5. higit sa lahat, kapag lagi mu nang kasama yang nanay mu at kinakausap mu ng matagal, delikado na yan..ibig sabihin, mag-mall ka, magvideoke ka, mag-clubbing ka..maghanap ng ibang kausap. malamang bored ka na.

sabi ko nga kay annatek, kase naman puro ka work..madami ngang lalake na lawyer jan, puro naman may asawa..eh di magtravel ka kase, sama mu yang mga anak mu. gusto mu minsan, gaybar tayu!!!

..and so tonight, we will.

panty shopping

Gosh, I'm so fucking tired with working. But anyway, its my payday today so ok lang. grocery shopping na ako kanina.

I actually tried to avoid the lingerie shops..but sadly I couldn't!!.. shet talaga. I love panties, I love the ones who has laces on them, with different colors except white. I don't know about other people, but I hate white panties, and also grandma panties..eww.. kahit ako, if i ever pretend to be a lesbian, it would ruin the sexual moment, when the girl i'm seeing is wearing huge panties,bigger than my head. parang tatayu nalang ako at sabhin ko sa babae, "tara yosi na lang tayu".

and so there, I bought nanaman some t-backs, sometimes nga lang malamig sa ass chicks pag naka-skirt, pero hell with it, i feel sexy. And while panty shopping, I saw a good friend of mine, Laila, who laughingly quips at me "anu ba yan, aanhin mu ba yang mga panty mu".. i shot back "alangan namang kainin ko di ba..sympre susuotin ko, at pake mu panty ko to hehe."

Suprisingly, I bought really nice boy-leg panties and some string ones.. really love the colors. ewan ko ba, it just feels sexy and its nice to feel womanly inside yourself. Parang if you're out there, kahit pawis-pawisan ka na or amoy usok ka na and all... u know, u are still sexy kase u are wearing a sensual lingerie, that would certainly shoot any man's blood up to his "two heads" .

pero sympre, ikaw lang nakakaalam nun. and That's what I love about it.

I love Wendy Valdez

shubba and I watched PBB for the past few weekends. weekends lang kame nanunuod kase yun yung nomination night and that's the only time we are both in the apartment, and we find it interesting to see them all in tears. haha. mean talaga kame.

And for the past few weeks, I keep recieving this absurd emails forwarded about the certain housemate, wendy.. namedly a cousin of an ex of hers, probably found it "amusing" to dish all the dirt and write some trash about her. As if naman, i would believe the one who wrote it, eh sinu ba sya? di ko naman sya kilala noh?
Which actually I found it so hilarious. It makes me curious, who the hell wendy is.

Well, I talked to my gay friend, Shubba as he is the perpetually avid fan of showbiz, and he says he likes wendy kase, for the past months he has been watching PBB, only wendy shows the real mood and really becomes true to her emotions, ng walang pakelam sa mga kasama nya. As Shubba quotes "jusko, imagine tinatarayan ka na ng tao, wala ka pa ren imik, puro ka pa ren i love you..anu yun? tanga ka na nun?" korek. and so we agreed. we love wendy, no matter what the emails say or even the friendster bulletins say.

OO nga naman, if you're bitching it all out, might as well be real and shout your temper. Kahit ako e, pucha wala na ngang tv nor sounds, at puro pa kunong mabait na tao kasama mu, hell with them. Eh ako pa naman taklesa, muka naman akong tanga kung di ako magsasalita ever. Yung gee-an ba yun? ewan... ewan ko ba. mukang delikado ang psychological capacity mu neng, parang you would be the last person i would be with, jusko sucidal ka ata e. tama si mickey, why do u care a lot? my god, neng, in this world.. anyone should be tough, if u can't be tough..might as well, go inside your house, lock your door and cry for the rest of your life.

Otherwise, we love wendy kase.. we relate to her, you were treated a bitch all your life then might as well, survive. Be real and survive. That's the truth and that is the real drama. The strong personality she exudes is a real gem.

Go wendy.

lunch with witches

Hay nako, yesterday my uber-stressed aunts, are trying to insist that i'm old and i need to get a bf . heller? para anu naman, jusko di nga magkasya pera ko for me, tapos i'll get pa into a relationship where in the guy, also has his dreams and ambitions, blah blah.. I don't need that crap now. to hell with it. If I'm gonna be with someone, i'll really be with someone, no chances. basta kame na. But I don't feel like it e, I am 30 so what. So what. I mean I have my own car, and I am sharing an apartment with a gay friend, and so what if we do get drunk mostly on saturday nights. masaya naman kame. My gay room mate, is actually a drag queen by night and a programmer by day..hehe astig. two faced life. But he's been a childhood friend eversince, so in midst of catfights, dogfights and whatever it is we fight about, we keep each 0ther insane. And yes, he's with his lover.. and I'm single. But life never gets boring, parating may nangyayari kalokohan. Katulad nyan, I saw my rich aunts for lunch yesterday, and all they blab about, is why I don't get a house on my own or probably live decently naman with someone straight.

Taena, keber. I don't care at all. Eh sila, nga they're rich and they have families, but most of my cousins get pregnant before their debut time and they don't care because they have money naman to support it, but not all people have principles like that, and I'm not one of them.

I may be just an ordinary girl, but I got dreams. And I have the right to dream alone.